There are bite marks up my arms. I'm lying in his arms. I'm unfelt and I don't want you to tune every radio station. I pulled you from the ground three times tonight. I told you my biggest secret. You won't remember. I'm glad. It means that I have a project again. I have drama again. I have something to spend energy on. And secrets are the most fun. I like you so much and I know you feel the same. Will I go down the victim path once more? I love your cloudy bed and I love your body, but could I ever love you?

She hurts me in ways unseen and understanding comes only from those with first experience of someone like that. She was the worst, but i dont know if I'd change it.

I held you while you cried tonight. I hope you don't forget that.